I just wanna help.

When my friends are hurting, it's like I automatically take on their pain as well. If they are scared, I'm scared for them. If they are heartbroken, my heart aches as well. If they are angry, I'm right there ready to fight.

I try to be someone who is easy to talk to... someone that people feel comfortable to turn to when they need a shoulder to cry on. It makes me sad to see my friends hurt, but I know that sometimes all it takes is someone who cares. I know that's how I am... sometimes all I need is someone to talk to.

But it hurts me even more when my friends are hurting, yet don't want the help. It breaks my heart to see the ones I love and care about fall apart at the seems, yet they don't want to admit it. To think that they would rather go on pretending that everything is okay, or just close themselves off from the world thinking it will be better that way... it just makes me cry.

There's only so much I can do. If someone is not willing to accept the help or is too scared to show their brokeness, I can't force them. So, instead, I have to sit back... and hope and pray that they don't end up hurting themselves anymore than they already hurt. It kills me.

Still, who am I to say that people need to be more open with their thoughts or feelings. Maybe it's just me. Maybe I am too willing to share how I feel. Maybe I should stop trying to force it out of people and just let them handle their pain the way they feel is best. I don't know.

Regardless, if I ever pry or bother you too much, wanting to know how you are doing or if you are okay... please know that it's not me trying to be nosey or tell you what to do... it's just how I show that I care. And when I love someone, I can't just sit back and do nothing. It's just not how I work. I can't NOT do anything.

I don't ever want that one time I didn't ask... that one time I didn't reach out... to pass by and then it be too late.